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"6 weeks ✨️ I'd be lying if I said the full force of prep hasn't hit. I am tired, sore, my brain is a monkey clapping tambourines off beat 99% of the time & I want to yeet my cat anytime she gets a little too needy (shout out to all the parents who prep not sure how you do it). I'd also be lying if I said I hadn’t thought about pulling the plug on it. It's not that I don't want to take the stage, I really do, it's that sometimes the stories I tell myself still win because I am a human being who realistically is only just on the other side of depression. I'm not afraid to admit that I'm not someone who has it all figured out, like everyone else am still learning, growing, evolving & trying to make something better for myself. But I won't quit & I don't plan to quit and here's why; I keep going back to something I wrote a while ago: 'It's easy at first to break promises to yourself & not do the things you said you would. It's easy as first to find an excuse, or put it off until tomorrow. It's easy at first to settle for a job, relationship or a life that didn't turn out how you thought it would. & then one day it's not, one day it becomes the hardest thing in the world & you're left wondering why you’re miserable' One of the main reasons I wanted to take the stage is because I was so tired of letting myself down in almost every area of my life, I was hungry & desperate for change. I was tired of not holding myself to account, finishing anything I started (unless it"

"Your great life isn't going to be achieved by playing it small, risk being seen in all of your glory ✨️ Own it. Lean into it. Send it 🌞🌻 . . . . . . . . . . . . . #motivation #wbff #fitness #discipline #health #ownitleanintoitsendit #wbffcompetitor #mindset #growthmindset #queen #bigqueenenergy #confidence #empowerment #sobriety #soberissexy #soberlife #alcoholfree #freedom #photoshoot"

"5 weeks ✨️ And 1 week until I can announce a lil secret i've been keeping 😜 In the meantime, a bit of Thursday trivia for everyone is up until 22 weeks ago I never really wore heels. Standing at almost 6 foot without them, I always felt like I was too tall and taking up too much space (ahh past Nikki you fool). Excitingly with these 7 inch heels I'll be pushing 6'6 on stage and proudly taking up all the space. 22 weeks ago, I could barely stand in heels for longer than 5 mins. It wasn't until I met @theonlymaheen and she literally gave me the shoes she was wearing to test drive did I really start to get comfortable in them and understand how to pivot from the back foot properly (thanks queen, forever grateful for you ❤️). It's taken practising every day to feel comfortable and confident enough that I won't break a neck on stage in them to get to this point. If you want something bad enough, you'll put in the work to get there - remember that. 5 weeks to peel and refine 👏🙏 Locked, loaded, full send - all gas no brakes (unless it's for a nap) - let's goooo 😈"

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"The amazing duo @kristinvenae & @michaelelbacha_official Congratulations on your new show ❤️ #ishtarphotography #photooftheday #photo #photographer #photography #photoshoot #makeupartist #model #موديلات #photosessions #photograph #modeling #makeup #trend #photobomb #photoaday #makeup #photowall #photographylovers #makeuptutorial #photomodel #photogenic #photograpy #photoart #fashionstyle #fashionista #fashionblogger"

"The gorgeous @glowithlili and the amazing @jojosebastianofficial At: @mrsaustraliainternational @beautynbrainsaustralia Head design @ahkimartofhair #ishtarphotography #photooftheday #photo #photographer #photography #photoshoot #makeupartist #model #موديلات #photosessions #photograph #modeling #makeup #trend #photobomb #photoaday #makeup #photowall #photographylovers #makeuptutorial #photomodel #photogenic #photograpy #photoart #fashionstyle #fashionista #fashionblogger #fashionweek"