Caluroso

"Note to self: take up journalling rather than putting feelings on the internet, especially during prep 😂 she's back and ready to rumble 😈 #callingmyselfout . . . . . . . . #wbff #wbffaustralia #posing #wbffbikini #fitness #wbfftransformation"

"One of the best aspects of posing is how empowering it is when you have fun, let loose and bring you into it. It's an expression and performance of you, that's what creates the magic ✨️ Whether your vibe is sexy, bad bitch, sassy, fierce, sensual, cute, camp, playful, strong, funny etc you can create a routine that displays exactly that and as a result exactly who you are. It truely is an art form and one that i am so grateful @theonlymaheen has given me so much creative freedom with. Posing has taught me more about confidence and loving who I see in the mirror more than anything else. Week by week I see this Nikki that was always there but lacked the confidence, or place to lean into it, come out to play and i think dayum, there she is 😍🔥😈 It's taught me there is no shame in being confident (imma go into this in another post later) - it's sexy and magnetic. You've gotta own that shit, lean into it and send it baby. I genuinely can't wait to bring our art to life on stage in a sparkly bikini in less than 5 weeks and show everyone who i am 😍. Until then we keep working to make it as close to a masterpiece as possible 🎨 What is your posing vibe and what do you think mine is? 😜"

"6 weeks ✨️ I'd be lying if I said the full force of prep hasn't hit. I am tired, sore, my brain is a monkey clapping tambourines off beat 99% of the time & I want to yeet my cat anytime she gets a little too needy (shout out to all the parents who prep not sure how you do it). I'd also be lying if I said I hadn’t thought about pulling the plug on it. It's not that I don't want to take the stage, I really do, it's that sometimes the stories I tell myself still win because I am a human being who realistically is only just on the other side of depression. I'm not afraid to admit that I'm not someone who has it all figured out, like everyone else am still learning, growing, evolving & trying to make something better for myself. But I won't quit & I don't plan to quit and here's why; I keep going back to something I wrote a while ago: 'It's easy at first to break promises to yourself & not do the things you said you would. It's easy as first to find an excuse, or put it off until tomorrow. It's easy at first to settle for a job, relationship or a life that didn't turn out how you thought it would. & then one day it's not, one day it becomes the hardest thing in the world & you're left wondering why you’re miserable' One of the main reasons I wanted to take the stage is because I was so tired of letting myself down in almost every area of my life, I was hungry & desperate for change. I was tired of not holding myself to account, finishing anything I started (unless it"

"The gorgeous @glowithlili and the amazing @jojosebastianofficial At: @mrsaustraliainternational @beautynbrainsaustralia Head design @ahkimartofhair #ishtarphotography #photooftheday #photo #photographer #photography #photoshoot #makeupartist #model #موديلات #photosessions #photograph #modeling #makeup #trend #photobomb #photoaday #makeup #photowall #photographylovers #makeuptutorial #photomodel #photogenic #photograpy #photoart #fashionstyle #fashionista #fashionblogger #fashionweek"

"The amazing duo @kristinvenae & @michaelelbacha_official Congratulations on your new show ❤️ #ishtarphotography #photooftheday #photo #photographer #photography #photoshoot #makeupartist #model #موديلات #photosessions #photograph #modeling #makeup #trend #photobomb #photoaday #makeup #photowall #photographylovers #makeuptutorial #photomodel #photogenic #photograpy #photoart #fashionstyle #fashionista #fashionblogger"

"Gorgeous model @nat4_beauty #ishtarphotography #photooftheday #photo #photographer #photography #photoshoot #makeupartist #model #موديلات #photosessions #photograph #modeling #makeup #trend #photobomb #photoaday #makeup #photowall #photographylovers #makeuptutorial #photomodel #photogenic #photograpy #photoart #fashionstyle #fashionista #fashionblogger #fashionweek"